write for me

Dear Xiaoqing,

I know that you are very upset today. You were later for your important meeting with your tutor. You missed the very useful guide to write your MA essay. Your brief will be marked down 10% only because your tutor changed his words. Your supervisor did not do things in the way you want. He criticised your online work but it was too late to change the content, not to mention that you once had to change your topic.

You have been frustrated with your final project since May. But you did not tell others. In the midnight you looked through the ceiling, quietly, thinking about the structure of your story. You expected someone who told you how to do it better. You don't understand why people are so easy to say that you should rely on self-learning. The cultural differences bring misunderstanding. Communications break down.

You remembered the very beginning day in Shanghai. You stood on the roof of your school's tall building. With the hot wind passed, you felt so lonely on the planet. You did not like the major. You did not have a friend then. People spoke another dialect around you. You could not find the classrooms or the cafeteria. All you remembered was in the hot hot weather, you tried your best not falling on the street.

You thought you had buried these days. The hardest days that you went through.

Actually they did not disappear. They lived in the deep bottom of your memory and would come out when you were low.

But you have to grow up to face the difficulties in your life. There will never be a person always going to help you. Yes you will meet somebody who could help you to certain extent. But you can't rely on that.

Human is a lonely straw. This is the destination.

He born alone and leaves alone.

I hope you write this, read this and become better. There is always a way to save your blue mood.

And you will come out from it on your own.

Love from
your dream