source: Chinareview
September 6th, four school governors and one teacher searched hundreds of teenage students one by one for personal phones without any advance notice.
Students were requested to stand at the classroom corners while the search took place. Governors and teacher took away phones, chargers and phone cables once they found in students school bags, draws.
Students bodies were also searched apart from underwear. One student Lee hided the phone in his underwear and saved the phone.
The teacher read the chatting history in the smart phone and found his student was chatting with another opposite sex student on the inappropriate ‘romantic love’ topics.
The search involves both male and female students who were to have either high school entries exams (15-year-old) or college entries exams (18-year-old).
Story ideas:
1. No punishment for personal search even to teenagers. no law, no regulation.
2. Likewise supermarket theft suspicion body search; but students own their personal phone; school took them all
3. School think smart phone would disturb students study; students surf online in class
4. Teachers believe some internet content is harmful for youngsters
5. Some parents believe it is ok to search the body as students should not have phones in class. Only study is permitted in classroom. They are happy that school took actions to help students study
6. Students felt insulted during and after the search
7. School does have regulations phones are only used to contact parents; not permitted to chat, play games and must be switched off in class.
8. Teacher checked the chatting history in the phone
Saturday, 7 September 2013
Friday, 23 August 2013
Something you did not know
It has been a long time that I stopped reading and writing. The ability is dusted in the back of my head but never disappeared.Since you might read, I just want to take the opportunity to say Thank you for reminding me of who I was and why I am here.We all have stories to tell: the pains of growth and the joy of the same growth. I started to love the younger age of myself when I actually know what I want. Simply an icecream or a visit to the zoo. Now I am lost all the time. I thought I want a designer clothes. But I did not realise whether it is the real 'I' wants it or it is the world tells me that I want it. I always desire to make sure I know the reason of existing. And the best way is to keep thinking. Sadly lots of things have diluted the ability of consciously thinking. With a little knowledge in the media, I would attribute it to the advertisements, TV programs. Believe it or not, the media controls the world- sounds quite familiar! The matrix or the machine that we created controls us! One starts to desire things he does not need; then he has to work in the fields he finds it difficult to build the affection. But the world tells him he has to sacrifice. Then the unpleased mood must be compensated by the stronger desire at the beginning. He wants a larger house, a more beautiful wife, a posh yacht. But those are all illusions. It is the media who tells this lies and one believes the lies. If one asks him to score the happiness, no statistics could prove that he would be happier. I am not superior to anyone. I just want to steer away something that I don't like and I know I, probably, could not resist. The more I desire, the more unhappiness hits me. I know for sure the extra pressure is well hidden beneath the glamour. I chose to turn away and back to the world that I could handle. A world in which I need nothing more than books, friends and food
Wednesday, 1 August 2012
A boring day
The negtive part of being excited is the empty feeling afterwards.I don't know how others handle this issue but I am kind of stuck at the point where I have experienced watching Olympic Opening Ceremony live on TV, taking pictures witht the torch in my big name firm, cherring up for my exams and having funs with friend A, B, C...even watching loads of rented films and reading books within two weeks.
Either it is due to the poor food I have recently or it happens to be my physically low point, or maybe lack of good quality of sleep, I find it very very tired yesterday and today. I ended up with cups after cups of coffee but felt more empty later. Even now I have pretty much work to do, I opened my blog trying to dig out what is wrong with me.
Yep a boring day.
Nothing to look forward for the weekend. Next week study again. The week after will be two training days and two holidays to be approved by manager. I guess if the manager could response my application then I could grasp a lime of happiness in the typical London cloudy day.
To review others performance in their business makes me boring as well.
Still another 4 months to go for visiting back home. Not to mention that the horrible intense study beforehand which requires my praying a lot. Considering my IQ, I would not think it is easy for me to pass the exam. If luckily enough, I will be safe on my job as those are the last subjects which the firm could sack me if I fail.
Monday, 14 May 2012
Beijing University is to relaunch a consultation scheme to request students addictive to internet to attend internet cessation class
Beijing University, top university in China, is to relaunch the scheme ' consultation’ requiring students addictive to internet to attend 'internet cessation class' according to university internal document. The scheme used to target students with extreme thinking last year.
The relaunched scheme changed one key word from helping ‘extreme thinking students’ to ‘students addictive to internet this year. It requires every college to submit a list of at least five to school every month as previously all colleges submit a list of zero. Students on the list are required to attend ‘internet cessation’ class with lectures and workshop.
Last May when the original scheme first published to keep a list of extreme thinking students, it triggered huge controversy inside and outside Beijing University thus not coming into final implement. ‘Since there is no such clear definition for ‘extreme thinking’ universally, it would restrain the creativity and diverse thinking of the most excellent students in China. ‘ according to 21st financial newspaper.
This year the university learnt its lesson by changing ‘extreme thinking students’ to students addictive to internet or with study difficulties but so far there is no consensus definition on internet addiction available. According to Sun Yuchen, one independent famous blogger with hundreds of thousands of followers from Chinese website sina.com, ‘this is against human rights as every adult enjoys his right to do things freely. School can’t force its adult students to attend certain consultation by catagorising them in ‘internet cessation’ class.
‘Suttlely the scheme is to regime creative students thinking in a way in accordance with Communist Party.’ he also says, ‘school should focus on the improvement of service for its students rather than punishing students who criticise on the service.’
Published on March 24th 2011, the Beijing Evening News quoted Zha Jing, Vice Minister of the university work department, consultation will be interested in students with radical ideas. Some students often exaggerated school work’s tiny faults, "such as school cafeteria food rose two pence. "
But some commentators believe that, if the university want to tag students with radical-thinker, the school should arrange students for speaking guide training, such as what department of the government could be critisised and to what extent can certain government actions be criticised. Some even joked to compile a "Beijing University students speaking guide" which may become a best-seller.
New criticals said that to require a list of five will be no difference from catagorising people with Right Party during Chinese cultural revolution. No right is granted to the university to catagorise its students either with internet addiction or extreme-thinker.
The relaunched scheme changed one key word from helping ‘extreme thinking students’ to ‘students addictive to internet this year. It requires every college to submit a list of at least five to school every month as previously all colleges submit a list of zero. Students on the list are required to attend ‘internet cessation’ class with lectures and workshop.
Last May when the original scheme first published to keep a list of extreme thinking students, it triggered huge controversy inside and outside Beijing University thus not coming into final implement. ‘Since there is no such clear definition for ‘extreme thinking’ universally, it would restrain the creativity and diverse thinking of the most excellent students in China. ‘ according to 21st financial newspaper.
This year the university learnt its lesson by changing ‘extreme thinking students’ to students addictive to internet or with study difficulties but so far there is no consensus definition on internet addiction available. According to Sun Yuchen, one independent famous blogger with hundreds of thousands of followers from Chinese website sina.com, ‘this is against human rights as every adult enjoys his right to do things freely. School can’t force its adult students to attend certain consultation by catagorising them in ‘internet cessation’ class.
‘Suttlely the scheme is to regime creative students thinking in a way in accordance with Communist Party.’ he also says, ‘school should focus on the improvement of service for its students rather than punishing students who criticise on the service.’
Published on March 24th 2011, the Beijing Evening News quoted Zha Jing, Vice Minister of the university work department, consultation will be interested in students with radical ideas. Some students often exaggerated school work’s tiny faults, "such as school cafeteria food rose two pence. "
But some commentators believe that, if the university want to tag students with radical-thinker, the school should arrange students for speaking guide training, such as what department of the government could be critisised and to what extent can certain government actions be criticised. Some even joked to compile a "Beijing University students speaking guide" which may become a best-seller.
New criticals said that to require a list of five will be no difference from catagorising people with Right Party during Chinese cultural revolution. No right is granted to the university to catagorise its students either with internet addiction or extreme-thinker.
Saturday, 24 December 2011
I don't want to complain but...
It is an unpleasant week or even month. I felt quite depressed. Not too much work to do since managers are busy filing. No progress in studying not because I am not hard working it is because the more I read the study materials, the less confident I feel- the more I don't understand. Thinking of the two headache exams ahead, I can't go to sleep!
I might just think too much. I wonder whether you had such feeling. You really want to do something well. But no matter how hard you try, it never works in the way you want. You absolutely frustrated!
I want to do well in my ACA qualification exams. Currently I am still doing the very easy part. Not easy to admit this but I used to be an above-average student in the class. Now I found every single subject difficult to tackle. When I saw others making progress all the time I became very impatient.
The tough terms become very very annoying. Hate to say the cliche again but English holds me back quite a lot! I don't understand what 'give rise to' mean when I refer to the question answer explanation. The online dictionary said it means to cause something to exist. So how should I understand 'give rise to an agency by estoppel'?- BTW I don't understand estoppel either and auto spelling check does not know either by showing a red underline!
Sadly it is quite an impossible thing to share since people who are able to understand my situation have no patient to listen and people who could listen can not help. I don't know which I prefer- a person to listen or a person to teach me in practice...
Trouble deprives from the desire beyond my ability. I want a good skill of excel/ AS2, good exam skills in ACA and a good relationship with my colleges.
Looking for a solution.
Need Help.
Don't want any more stress!!!
I might just think too much. I wonder whether you had such feeling. You really want to do something well. But no matter how hard you try, it never works in the way you want. You absolutely frustrated!
I want to do well in my ACA qualification exams. Currently I am still doing the very easy part. Not easy to admit this but I used to be an above-average student in the class. Now I found every single subject difficult to tackle. When I saw others making progress all the time I became very impatient.
The tough terms become very very annoying. Hate to say the cliche again but English holds me back quite a lot! I don't understand what 'give rise to' mean when I refer to the question answer explanation. The online dictionary said it means to cause something to exist. So how should I understand 'give rise to an agency by estoppel'?- BTW I don't understand estoppel either and auto spelling check does not know either by showing a red underline!
Sadly it is quite an impossible thing to share since people who are able to understand my situation have no patient to listen and people who could listen can not help. I don't know which I prefer- a person to listen or a person to teach me in practice...
Trouble deprives from the desire beyond my ability. I want a good skill of excel/ AS2, good exam skills in ACA and a good relationship with my colleges.
Looking for a solution.
Need Help.
Don't want any more stress!!!
Monday, 31 October 2011
I don't mean to be like that...
I hope someone could take my appology of being so slow to understand what I was taught.
And PLEASE LET ME PASS!
And PLEASE LET ME PASS!
Friday, 21 October 2011
Heritage
I did once wish that I were born elsewhere such as Austrilia, the US or the UK. Then I don't need to learn another language.
Or I were born with a sliver spoon. Then I would not only feel free to enjoy the luxury accommodation and buy plenty of beautiful clothes without the glance of the price but also I could study whatever I like without considering how to make a living.
Or I just enjoy any possible privillage on the earth.
Until I realise somehow heritage could be a bad thing.
It will take away my juicy feeling of life.
I had experienced the working class's life when I struggled to work as a waitress in a Chinese restaurant here, being requested a lot of ridiculous orders and critised by the particular Chinese boss.
And I had to give up my favourate subject literature since I can not guarantee that I could find a professional job with a handsome salary. I steered away from my beloved books but did a horrible volume of maths exercise and exams. If someone asks me to name the most terrible unhumanity thing, then I would say to demand a teenager to improve useless exam skills with a huge burden and sleepless nights for years just to enter a 'key' university.
I would not have gain the richness of life, pain and joy. I think only with pain that a man could grow into a man. Every lesson with pains will be writte deeply into my genes and be learnt by my heart forever.
Now I am happy of who I am. Experience all those in my past years, I found it easy to tackle the difficulties that I come across all the time. I did struggle when I had to learn an accounting qualification in a foreign language. Even for a native speaker, it could be challenging. Even for a student without a relative degree it could be challenging. Not to mention myself.
But I was born for some reasons, I believe. If it were taught in my mother language, if it were all about journalistic or communication stuff, if... many ifs. But life is full of everything but not ifs. Never if. Somehow people could not be successful in every field. Thank Lord gives me some talents so I could come this far.
I suddenly realise there is some heritages that I have not fully used.
The courage to conquer the obstacles.
The persistance to realise my dream
And the faith of my Lord.
If I have to choose any heritage, I would not go for many millions pounds but a gift of talent, to face every challenge in the richness of life.
Or I were born with a sliver spoon. Then I would not only feel free to enjoy the luxury accommodation and buy plenty of beautiful clothes without the glance of the price but also I could study whatever I like without considering how to make a living.
Or I just enjoy any possible privillage on the earth.
Until I realise somehow heritage could be a bad thing.
It will take away my juicy feeling of life.
I had experienced the working class's life when I struggled to work as a waitress in a Chinese restaurant here, being requested a lot of ridiculous orders and critised by the particular Chinese boss.
And I had to give up my favourate subject literature since I can not guarantee that I could find a professional job with a handsome salary. I steered away from my beloved books but did a horrible volume of maths exercise and exams. If someone asks me to name the most terrible unhumanity thing, then I would say to demand a teenager to improve useless exam skills with a huge burden and sleepless nights for years just to enter a 'key' university.
I would not have gain the richness of life, pain and joy. I think only with pain that a man could grow into a man. Every lesson with pains will be writte deeply into my genes and be learnt by my heart forever.
Now I am happy of who I am. Experience all those in my past years, I found it easy to tackle the difficulties that I come across all the time. I did struggle when I had to learn an accounting qualification in a foreign language. Even for a native speaker, it could be challenging. Even for a student without a relative degree it could be challenging. Not to mention myself.
But I was born for some reasons, I believe. If it were taught in my mother language, if it were all about journalistic or communication stuff, if... many ifs. But life is full of everything but not ifs. Never if. Somehow people could not be successful in every field. Thank Lord gives me some talents so I could come this far.
I suddenly realise there is some heritages that I have not fully used.
The courage to conquer the obstacles.
The persistance to realise my dream
And the faith of my Lord.
If I have to choose any heritage, I would not go for many millions pounds but a gift of talent, to face every challenge in the richness of life.
Wednesday, 19 October 2011
A Bad Day...
I am very slow, at the moment, in learning both for my ACA course and my AS2 training even though I stay up late to recap a lot. My collegues seem quite cheerful everyday and not as struggling as I am suffering. For my study I keep reviewing my subjects everyday, step by step. I have planed to review Tax and Assurance in the evening while I work in the daytime, which I am doing now. And I will start reviewing accounting when I have my holiday- full seven days before the exam. I completely understand that things could be even worse if I have not been devoting 100% of my efforts.
I did or still have a bit doubt whether I am capable of doing this job. My difficulty does come from my English and non accounting experience. Many people may have one issue but I happen to have both. When I see my colleges started to use their skillful excel command to design professional work, I felt so bad since I did not know where to get the file!
Surely I don't want to be sacked for failing my exams but to certain extend that I have to admit I need more time to really understand something. Apart from that I have to accept the fact that people can't be good at every field...which makes me feel not good.
I began to talk less recently.
I did or still have a bit doubt whether I am capable of doing this job. My difficulty does come from my English and non accounting experience. Many people may have one issue but I happen to have both. When I see my colleges started to use their skillful excel command to design professional work, I felt so bad since I did not know where to get the file!
Surely I don't want to be sacked for failing my exams but to certain extend that I have to admit I need more time to really understand something. Apart from that I have to accept the fact that people can't be good at every field...which makes me feel not good.
I began to talk less recently.
Wednesday, 14 September 2011
Become English (5) follow the denial rule in public
I find that when English step outside the security and privacy of their homes, then began to obey a rule called “denial”: try to avoid acknowledging that a scary crowd of strangers and maintain as much as privacy as possible by pretending that the crowd do not exist and much of the time pretending themselves not exist either. To follow the denial rule requires me to avoid talking to strangers or even making eye contact with them or indeed acknowledging their presence in any way unless absolutely necessary.
At the same time the rule imposes an obligation to avoid drawing attention to oneself and to mind one’s own business.
In fact I would go so far as to say that Englishness is rather more a matter of choice for the ethnic minorities in this country than it is for the rest of English people.
I have the advantage of being able to pick and choose more freely often adopting the more desirable English quirks and habits while carefully steering clearly of the ludicrous ones.
At the same time the rule imposes an obligation to avoid drawing attention to oneself and to mind one’s own business.
In fact I would go so far as to say that Englishness is rather more a matter of choice for the ethnic minorities in this country than it is for the rest of English people.
I have the advantage of being able to pick and choose more freely often adopting the more desirable English quirks and habits while carefully steering clearly of the ludicrous ones.
Become English (4) Follow the self-deprecation rule
Initially I don't understand why English people could stand others to point fingers at their prime minister. But later on I sense the deep pride of English that they don't really care because they just follow a rule called self-deprecation.
Not that the English are somehow naturally more modest and self-effacing than other nations but that they have strict rules about the appearance of modest. So I create a scene and show you how to become English.
Suppose that I am a brain surgeon. When I meet a new friend, normally after weather chat I will be asked what had led me to choose this profession. ‘well um, I read PPE, philosophy, politics and economics at Oxford –let me pretend- but I found it all rather beyond me, so, er, I thought I’d better do something a bit less difficult.’ you laughed, but then, as I must have expected, protested that surely brain surgery could not really be described as an easy option. This gave me a further opportunity as for self-deprecation. ‘oh no, it’s nowhere near as clever as its cracked up to be; to be honest it’s actually a bit hit-or-miss. Its just plumbing, really plumbing with, with a microscope-excpet plumbing’s rather more accurate.”
I was simply playing by the rules, dealing with the embarrassment of success and prestige by making a self-denigrating joke out of it all, as is English custom. And this is the point, an approach to becoming English, I see English people do this automatically all the time and so do I.
Not that the English are somehow naturally more modest and self-effacing than other nations but that they have strict rules about the appearance of modest. So I create a scene and show you how to become English.
Suppose that I am a brain surgeon. When I meet a new friend, normally after weather chat I will be asked what had led me to choose this profession. ‘well um, I read PPE, philosophy, politics and economics at Oxford –let me pretend- but I found it all rather beyond me, so, er, I thought I’d better do something a bit less difficult.’ you laughed, but then, as I must have expected, protested that surely brain surgery could not really be described as an easy option. This gave me a further opportunity as for self-deprecation. ‘oh no, it’s nowhere near as clever as its cracked up to be; to be honest it’s actually a bit hit-or-miss. Its just plumbing, really plumbing with, with a microscope-excpet plumbing’s rather more accurate.”
I was simply playing by the rules, dealing with the embarrassment of success and prestige by making a self-denigrating joke out of it all, as is English custom. And this is the point, an approach to becoming English, I see English people do this automatically all the time and so do I.
Become English (3) muddle what you really mean
I find it frustrated when I talk with my colleagues and clients a while to realise that when the English say “oh really how interesting!” does not necessarily mean interesting. Sometimes their facial expression obviously shows that they might well mean ‘I don’t believe a word of it, you lying toad.’ Or they might not. They might just mean ‘I’m bored and not really listening but trying to be polite’. Or they might be genuinely surprised and truly interested. You will never know. There is no way of telling: even the English themselves who have a pretty good sixth sense for detecting irony, cannot always be entirely sure. And this is the problem with then English irony-habit.
Then I know that English have a pretty good sixth sense for detecting irony, but please teach me since I have problems with the English irony habit on my way of becoming English. Sometimes English do say what they mean but the constant use of irony is a bit like crying wolf, when I do mean what I say, my audience seem not very surprised as they should be.
Then I know that English have a pretty good sixth sense for detecting irony, but please teach me since I have problems with the English irony habit on my way of becoming English. Sometimes English do say what they mean but the constant use of irony is a bit like crying wolf, when I do mean what I say, my audience seem not very surprised as they should be.
Become English (2) My experience in taking buses
Once I took the bus to my friend's place. When the bus came into a full stop, some passengers reluctantly move their bottom away from the chairs and walk peacefully towards the door. I doubt the comfort degree of the bus chair is far less than sofa at home but it seems that they took every second to lengthen their journey time. I used to live in a country where without fully preparation by moving yourself as close as possible to the door as early as possible, you will be able to miss the last chance to get off the bus and the next stop could be an extra travel by walking all the way back.
But I don’t understand why the bus driver ignore me when once I forget to wave to show that I really want to take that bus. I was obsessed with reading newspaper. Am I not 'big' enough to be spotted out? In a city where I grew up, the bus has to stop every stop so no chance to miss getting on board- unless so many want to get on and there is no space left for you. If it happen, some people may step their foot on the bus so they cease the bus from leaving. The passengers on the bus have to accompany him to wait for the next bus coming.
Anecdote: my friend who just came to London last week. We agreed to meet at the overground station but he was late. It is not because he got up late or any usual traffic jam but just because he did not know that one has to press the open button to open the door. When he realised this the train slowly moved away from the platform.
As an English you will NEVER have a chance to miss your opportunity to get off the train like this because it has become your natural habit, unconsciously written in your blood, that to press the button in order to open the door of the train.
Lucky we foreigners!
But I don’t understand why the bus driver ignore me when once I forget to wave to show that I really want to take that bus. I was obsessed with reading newspaper. Am I not 'big' enough to be spotted out? In a city where I grew up, the bus has to stop every stop so no chance to miss getting on board- unless so many want to get on and there is no space left for you. If it happen, some people may step their foot on the bus so they cease the bus from leaving. The passengers on the bus have to accompany him to wait for the next bus coming.
Anecdote: my friend who just came to London last week. We agreed to meet at the overground station but he was late. It is not because he got up late or any usual traffic jam but just because he did not know that one has to press the open button to open the door. When he realised this the train slowly moved away from the platform.
As an English you will NEVER have a chance to miss your opportunity to get off the train like this because it has become your natural habit, unconsciously written in your blood, that to press the button in order to open the door of the train.
Lucky we foreigners!
Become English (1) My experience in supermarket
I went to the supermarket one day and see all English stand quite and patient to wait for someone bottomed up his purse to get the change at the only open cashier. The English may complain by looking at their watch or tap their foot quietly- I doubt nobody see except me. But they never never speak out like “hurry up man!” or make other noticeable noise.
To become English I may not raise my eye brow next time when I am standing at the end of the queue after five trailers while the casher and a retired lady are talking about the weather.
Should behave like an English.
To become English I may not raise my eye brow next time when I am standing at the end of the queue after five trailers while the casher and a retired lady are talking about the weather.
Should behave like an English.
Tuesday, 3 May 2011
伦敦美食节 Real Food Festival 2011.5.5-8
地点:Earl's Court,伦敦,英国
作为一个美食爱好者,很期待去看一看“真正的食物”展览。而且我希望以后能够经营一家自己的小咖啡店,蓝天,白云,阳光,氤氲的时间。
作为一个美食爱好者,很期待去看一看“真正的食物”展览。而且我希望以后能够经营一家自己的小咖啡店,蓝天,白云,阳光,氤氲的时间。
Friday, 24 September 2010
I am lucky --notes after reading news
I am lucky to come here
and look back my country
I do not hava a visa
to earn pocket money in London
But still I am lucky for being here
More mainland couples give birth in Hongkong for a HK ID.
Under-paid workers are bulding the China's amazing glamoury.
Many students feel they lack the academic atmosphere.
...
Life is hard.
No equalty in the world. From born, we were seperated.We are so tiny that our faces dissapear soon in the crowd.
Compared with my mood, the weather utside in London is good enough.
and look back my country
I do not hava a visa
to earn pocket money in London
But still I am lucky for being here
More mainland couples give birth in Hongkong for a HK ID.
Under-paid workers are bulding the China's amazing glamoury.
Many students feel they lack the academic atmosphere.
...
Life is hard.
No equalty in the world. From born, we were seperated.We are so tiny that our faces dissapear soon in the crowd.
Compared with my mood, the weather utside in London is good enough.
Tuesday, 21 September 2010
I am not familiar with the world
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I keep silent
I still ask questions
like a child
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I feel desperate
I still look for the very first sunlight
outside the window
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I talk false
I still have sincerity
to sing with my heart
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I am lonely
I am still loved and in need of love
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I am indifferent
I could still be easily touched
even a single smile on your face
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I want to escape
I still have many dreams
held tightly in my hands
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I feel lost
I still have many directions
to find the way leading me free
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I am blue
I am still positive
and look forward to tomorrow
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I have a feeling of being hurt
I still trust people
as never being hurt
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I should give up
I still want to try my best
At least I want to realise my dream
even there is no light ahead
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I should choose from “to be” or “not to be”
I still have many other choices
Unfortunately they are not my choices
But this is not the reason that I keep silent
I still ask questions
like a child
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I feel desperate
I still look for the very first sunlight
outside the window
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I talk false
I still have sincerity
to sing with my heart
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I am lonely
I am still loved and in need of love
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I am indifferent
I could still be easily touched
even a single smile on your face
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I want to escape
I still have many dreams
held tightly in my hands
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I feel lost
I still have many directions
to find the way leading me free
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I am blue
I am still positive
and look forward to tomorrow
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I have a feeling of being hurt
I still trust people
as never being hurt
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I should give up
I still want to try my best
At least I want to realise my dream
even there is no light ahead
I am not familiar with the world
But this is not the reason that I should choose from “to be” or “not to be”
I still have many other choices
Unfortunately they are not my choices
Wednesday, 11 August 2010
new words for today
I set up a goal for myself. To learn five words per day! Start from today. Let's see how long I could carry on.
col·lab·o·ra·tive
–adjective
characterised or accomplished by collaboration: collaborative methods; a collaborative report.
collaborate (kəˈlæbəˌreɪt)
— vb (often foll by on, with, etc )
1. to work with another or others on a joint project
2. to cooperate as a traitor, esp with an enemy occupying one's own country
Main Entry: collaborative
Part of Speech: adjective
Definition: cooperative
Synonyms: collective, combining, joint, shared, synergetic /ˌsɪnərˈdʒɛtɪk/, synergic, synergistic
pen·e·tra·tion
/ˌpɛnɪˈtreɪʃən/
–noun
1.the act or power of penetrating.
2.mental acuteness, discernment, or insight: a scholar of rare penetration.
3.the obtaining of a share of a market for some commodity or service.
4.the extension, usually peaceful, of the influence of one nation or culture into the affairs of another.
5.a military attack that penetrates into enemy territory.
6.Gunnery . the depth to which a projectile goes into the target.
7.the measure of relative depth of field of a telescope or microscope, esp. a binocular microscope.
—Synonyms
2. understanding, perception, discrimination, depth, profundity.
spec·trum
–noun, plural -tra /-trə/ Show Spelled[-truh] Show IPA, -trums.
1.Physics .
a.an array of entities, as light waves or particles, ordered in accordance with the magnitudes of a common physical property, as wavelength or mass: often the band of colors produced when sunlight is passed through a prism, comprising red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, and violet.
b.this band or series of colors together with extensions at the ends that are not visible to the eye, but that can be studied by means of photography, heat effects, etc., and that are produced by the dispersion of radiant energy other than ordinary light rays. Compare band spectrum, electromagnetic spectrum, mass spectrum.
2.a broad range of varied but related ideas or objects, the individual features of which tend to overlap so as to form a continuous series or sequence: the spectrum of political beliefs.
col·lab·o·ra·tive
–adjective
characterised or accomplished by collaboration: collaborative methods; a collaborative report.
collaborate (kəˈlæbəˌreɪt)
— vb (often foll by on, with, etc )
1. to work with another or others on a joint project
2. to cooperate as a traitor, esp with an enemy occupying one's own country
Main Entry: collaborative
Part of Speech: adjective
Definition: cooperative
Synonyms: collective, combining, joint, shared, synergetic /ˌsɪnərˈdʒɛtɪk/, synergic, synergistic
pen·e·tra·tion
/ˌpɛnɪˈtreɪʃən/
–noun
1.the act or power of penetrating.
2.mental acuteness, discernment, or insight: a scholar of rare penetration.
3.the obtaining of a share of a market for some commodity or service.
4.the extension, usually peaceful, of the influence of one nation or culture into the affairs of another.
5.a military attack that penetrates into enemy territory.
6.Gunnery . the depth to which a projectile goes into the target.
7.the measure of relative depth of field of a telescope or microscope, esp. a binocular microscope.
—Synonyms
2. understanding, perception, discrimination, depth, profundity.
spec·trum
–noun, plural -tra /-trə/ Show Spelled[-truh] Show IPA, -trums.
1.Physics .
a.an array of entities, as light waves or particles, ordered in accordance with the magnitudes of a common physical property, as wavelength or mass: often the band of colors produced when sunlight is passed through a prism, comprising red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, and violet.
b.this band or series of colors together with extensions at the ends that are not visible to the eye, but that can be studied by means of photography, heat effects, etc., and that are produced by the dispersion of radiant energy other than ordinary light rays. Compare band spectrum, electromagnetic spectrum, mass spectrum.
2.a broad range of varied but related ideas or objects, the individual features of which tend to overlap so as to form a continuous series or sequence: the spectrum of political beliefs.
Monday, 2 August 2010
This week's plan
By the end of this week, finish the video for Susanna and my family.
Tomorrow, edit the video for Susanna wedding.
Wednesday, edit the video for my family.
Thursday, tell toastmaster that you wont have the camera any more because it's time to return it to the uni. Arrange the time to meet Susanna.
Friday, start writing the essay.
Saturday & Sunday- maybe go out?
Tomorrow, edit the video for Susanna wedding.
Wednesday, edit the video for my family.
Thursday, tell toastmaster that you wont have the camera any more because it's time to return it to the uni. Arrange the time to meet Susanna.
Friday, start writing the essay.
Saturday & Sunday- maybe go out?
write for me
Dear Xiaoqing,
I know that you are very upset today. You were later for your important meeting with your tutor. You missed the very useful guide to write your MA essay. Your brief will be marked down 10% only because your tutor changed his words. Your supervisor did not do things in the way you want. He criticised your online work but it was too late to change the content, not to mention that you once had to change your topic.
You have been frustrated with your final project since May. But you did not tell others. In the midnight you looked through the ceiling, quietly, thinking about the structure of your story. You expected someone who told you how to do it better. You don't understand why people are so easy to say that you should rely on self-learning. The cultural differences bring misunderstanding. Communications break down.
You remembered the very beginning day in Shanghai. You stood on the roof of your school's tall building. With the hot wind passed, you felt so lonely on the planet. You did not like the major. You did not have a friend then. People spoke another dialect around you. You could not find the classrooms or the cafeteria. All you remembered was in the hot hot weather, you tried your best not falling on the street.
You thought you had buried these days. The hardest days that you went through.
Actually they did not disappear. They lived in the deep bottom of your memory and would come out when you were low.
But you have to grow up to face the difficulties in your life. There will never be a person always going to help you. Yes you will meet somebody who could help you to certain extent. But you can't rely on that.
Human is a lonely straw. This is the destination.
He born alone and leaves alone.
I hope you write this, read this and become better. There is always a way to save your blue mood.
And you will come out from it on your own.
Love from
your dream
I know that you are very upset today. You were later for your important meeting with your tutor. You missed the very useful guide to write your MA essay. Your brief will be marked down 10% only because your tutor changed his words. Your supervisor did not do things in the way you want. He criticised your online work but it was too late to change the content, not to mention that you once had to change your topic.
You have been frustrated with your final project since May. But you did not tell others. In the midnight you looked through the ceiling, quietly, thinking about the structure of your story. You expected someone who told you how to do it better. You don't understand why people are so easy to say that you should rely on self-learning. The cultural differences bring misunderstanding. Communications break down.
You remembered the very beginning day in Shanghai. You stood on the roof of your school's tall building. With the hot wind passed, you felt so lonely on the planet. You did not like the major. You did not have a friend then. People spoke another dialect around you. You could not find the classrooms or the cafeteria. All you remembered was in the hot hot weather, you tried your best not falling on the street.
You thought you had buried these days. The hardest days that you went through.
Actually they did not disappear. They lived in the deep bottom of your memory and would come out when you were low.
But you have to grow up to face the difficulties in your life. There will never be a person always going to help you. Yes you will meet somebody who could help you to certain extent. But you can't rely on that.
Human is a lonely straw. This is the destination.
He born alone and leaves alone.
I hope you write this, read this and become better. There is always a way to save your blue mood.
And you will come out from it on your own.
Love from
your dream
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